August 2010
14 posts
So i’ve come to the conclusion that, for the most part, i know who i am. Problem now is figuring out what i want.
Let’s call it “love”, for lack of a better word.
Looking through old records i realize that who i am indeed is who i’ve been.
Even as a geek, it scares me just how much we as a society rely on technology.
ROTD: I not only have a deleteable relationship, i have a fairly deleteable identity/personality
It’d be nice if i could be in a relationship that can’t be deleted off an sms inbox. I feel like i’m going crazy again.
Good to be able to hang out with someone i’m comfortable talking to. :)
ROTD2: Not all thoughts, conversations, and moments are meant to be captured. I need to stop trying.
ROTD: The anxiety i feel probably isn’t any different from what everyone feels. It’s just amplified.
It’s funny, though. Tell any of my navy buddies i’m socially anxious, they probably wouldn’t believe you.
Run toward my fears? But isn’t that what i’ve -been- doing?
Realization of the day (yesterday): it takes a split second to feel emotion but forever to describe it in words.
Seeing the older female filipino sailors makes me wonder how I’ll age…
Just realized this weekend is my last weekend here. Gotta get packing.